Bitten

All along it was a fever
that came down with me.
I came to burn the witch
the simmer and twitch of madness
but firewater
does not burn her clean

on the end of the mourning
in the middle of the afternoon
you are a balm to me

down in the meadow
scrubland
undergrow

I cannot keep my head straight
and this old jacket
pulls arms across my heart,
and bends me out of shape.

I barely sleep at all these days.
We rock back words on grey granite waves
clint clamberers
and the scramble of brambles
bracken and lichen
the gorselit fires of
meadow sides
and stingy nettles
what which we we walk amongst
with wrists that grasses graze.

My palms listen to the bark and
moan of bitter holly trees
our jabber and jumpers punctuated with their leaves
while on the salted breeze
gypsy jinny-joes alight like thieves

I can’t look you in the eye,
but the silence we drink for a short while
before hills rolled out like tides
brings a cool white forearm to my
fevered forehead
settles my slacken jaw in a smile

and I swoon back into the sanctity of it all
and the holy petticoat immodesty
of wildflowers
wildflowers
wildflowers

Yearn

On bright September mornings you will hold me by the shoulders and I will hold your hands,
your gaze.
The air will be apple fresh and then succumb to haze.

I do not miss you yet but when I find you I will surround you with light
We are for one another.

Spine cradle
My very own fable

Giving me a secret to smile about.

Deerpark (in solidarity with all my beautiful sisters and brothers)

To you my body-sattvic,
the truth of you earths me,
grounds me and carries all that flows through.

In you are one hundred thousand sanghams of sanguine spirit,
the fire of my eyes, my gut, the wilderness of my will, my courage.
The imperishable spark of my heart is you.

To you, my body-sattvic, I have harmed you,
stuffed you and starved you
shelved pain on sunny shoulders and porcelain hips
I have scarred with you and warred with you
hurled cruel words at you
hid you and bid you to bed with unworthy gits,
I’ve dragged you through shit.

To you, my body sattvic,
I’ve flooded you with poison,
burnt you with booze
I’ve starved you of cleansing
and blackened you with tattoos

I’ve pricked you and pierced you stamped down all your aches
I’ve deprived you of rest
I’ve considered you my mistake

To you, my body-sattvic
you I’ve plucked, fucked and preened
I’ve cut you on mirrors
and cropped you on screens

You’ve held me up all this time yet I starved you of caress
you carry me with such patience
despite my duress

What is written on you is a story woven with so many threads
Body-sattvic you speak volumes
it will take me my lifetime for you to be read.

But now for you my body-sattvic
here dawns a new day
You are worthy, wonderful, loved and perfect in all that you do
So go out and play

And you my body-sattvic
have gifted me
butterflies in my stomach
tingles up both my arms
the brush of eyelashes on cheekbones
I couldn’t bear to do you harm

grass stroking ankles and mudsucking shins
Loud yawns in the morning
The slow stretch of laced limbs

Please forgive me my sadness, impatience, fear, ignorance and rage
Allow me to release you to soar as you are
free from the shackling shame of that cage

So let me be your bodhisattva and nourish you with compassion, acceptance and pride
from now on I promise to remember that together we share this
beautiful,
powerful,
story,
and that there is no you, only I.